hey people.

finally writing something.

okay lets get to the point.

life still MISERABLE.

i want DRAMA.

i have DRAMA.

rite now i gave up hope.

i don't give a fcuk anymore.

you treat me like an invisible wall.

what in the world did i do to deserve this.

you a different person.

you a two-face bitch.

and i don't respect that.

grow some courage and tell me straight to my face.

what a waste of life.

i hope you get what coming at you.

you a disrespectful person.

you take thing for granted.

take this advice,

get youself stright.

you a bunch of bullshit.

and i'm sorry i wasted my time on you.

i don't know what to write about.

i'm getting tired and lazy again.

the teacher are making my life a living hell.

everyday must have homework.

and not only that their lesson are just plain old boring.

every single day,

do the same boring day.

the only thing that gave me hope to go to school is to see 'him'

it may sound weird.

but he gave me faith to come to school and work hard.

even when he is not doing the same thing.

i don't know what he is doing to me!

i know i will be heartbroken sooner or later.

but some how i want to have the feeling that i'm having now.

nobody has make me feel this way

(i know some people are thinking that i'm an idoit for saying that)
but honestly dosen't that kind of feeling make someone happy.

cause it does to me.

and dosen't people in your life that love you want you to be happy.

maybe some people think i'm a fool

for loving 'him'.

but honestly you don't control my life or even how i feel.

just live your life and i live my life.

okay...

next topic.

finally posting something on my blog.

school is more tiring then ever.

wake up early in the morning.

and go back late.

bags are unbareble.

the surrounding are getting boring.

but somehow through all that i love my classmate then any other classmate i ever had.

at first it was boring,

as it seem that everyone are lifeless.

but as time pass by,

they are the best damn thing.

i feel that me and eida are sitting at a war zone area

paper are flying over our head.

i manage to cope with the lesson.

but sometime went to dreamland.

sometimes i coundn't understand a word the teachers say.

sometimes i was not listening cause i'm thinking of 'stuff'

i manage to pass most of the subject.

but it hurts to see subject that i fail.

i've been missing some classes cause of my laziness.

but what hurt me the most...

is when i couldn't get t see 'him'

sometime i wonder how he capture my heart.

i'm trying to find meself in this crazy world.

and wonder where i really belong.

sometime we built a wall.

to keep us from getting hurt.

but i guess the one who love us enough,

would manage to capture our heart and help us understand,

love.

today was okay.

i guess.

last week on friday me,eida,farsha and zaza watch valentine's day.

the movie was great.

then on sunday watch percy jackson and the lightning theif with my family.

the movie was awesome too.

and my handphone spoil.

and i use another handphone.

hopefully my father stick to his word and buy for me the handphone that i really want.

hershey make me fall for him all for again.

i'm always blushing whenever someone says his name.

it's hard to explaine how he make me feel.

people may call me stupid that i'm still waiting for him.

but they won't know how much i feel for you.

til here

...

today was great even when i did not see him that much.
the only incident is after recess when me and iqah was walking at the hall.
and and "iziz" like always.
but it was great.
then during chem was fun.
me and fadris had a friendly fight.
he called me a "minah" and i called him a "mat"
nothing like serious.
on friday going to watch VALENTINE'S DAY !!!!
with some of the BYT!
can't wait also going to celebrate zaza birthday.
can't wait!!!