i don't know what to write about.

i'm getting tired and lazy again.

the teacher are making my life a living hell.

everyday must have homework.

and not only that their lesson are just plain old boring.

every single day,

do the same boring day.

the only thing that gave me hope to go to school is to see 'him'

it may sound weird.

but he gave me faith to come to school and work hard.

even when he is not doing the same thing.

i don't know what he is doing to me!

i know i will be heartbroken sooner or later.

but some how i want to have the feeling that i'm having now.

nobody has make me feel this way

(i know some people are thinking that i'm an idoit for saying that)
but honestly dosen't that kind of feeling make someone happy.

cause it does to me.

and dosen't people in your life that love you want you to be happy.

maybe some people think i'm a fool

for loving 'him'.

but honestly you don't control my life or even how i feel.

just live your life and i live my life.

okay...

next topic.

finally posting something on my blog.

school is more tiring then ever.

wake up early in the morning.

and go back late.

bags are unbareble.

the surrounding are getting boring.

but somehow through all that i love my classmate then any other classmate i ever had.

at first it was boring,

as it seem that everyone are lifeless.

but as time pass by,

they are the best damn thing.

i feel that me and eida are sitting at a war zone area

paper are flying over our head.

i manage to cope with the lesson.

but sometime went to dreamland.

sometimes i coundn't understand a word the teachers say.

sometimes i was not listening cause i'm thinking of 'stuff'

i manage to pass most of the subject.

but it hurts to see subject that i fail.

i've been missing some classes cause of my laziness.

but what hurt me the most...

is when i couldn't get t see 'him'

sometime i wonder how he capture my heart.

i'm trying to find meself in this crazy world.

and wonder where i really belong.

sometime we built a wall.

to keep us from getting hurt.

but i guess the one who love us enough,

would manage to capture our heart and help us understand,

love.