MY TWISTED FAIRYTALE

2010-08-05T07:32:00.000-07:00

hey people.

finally writing something.

okay lets get to the point.

life still MISERABLE.

i want DRAMA.

i have DRAMA.

rite now i gave up hope.

i don't give a fcuk anymore.

you treat me like an invisible wall.

what in the world did i do to deserve this.

you a different person.

you a two-face bitch.

and i don't respect that.

grow some courage and tell me straight to my face.

what a waste of life.

i hope you get what coming at you.

you a disrespectful person.

you take thing for granted.

take this advice,

get youself stright.

you a bunch of bullshit.

and i'm sorry i wasted my time on you.

2010-04-15T06:06:00.000-07:00

i don't know what to write about.

i'm getting tired and lazy again.

the teacher are making my life a living hell.

everyday must have homework.

and not only that their lesson are just plain old boring.

every single day,

do the same boring day.

the only thing that gave me hope to go to school is to see 'him'

it may sound weird.

but he gave me faith to come to school and work hard.

even when he is not doing the same thing.

i don't know what he is doing to me!

i know i will be heartbroken sooner or later.

but some how i want to have the feeling that i'm having now.

nobody has make me feel this way

(i know some people are thinking that i'm an idoit for saying that)
but honestly dosen't that kind of feeling make someone happy.

cause it does to me.

and dosen't people in your life that love you want you to be happy.

WHEN MY WORLD IS FALLING APART

WHEN THERE'S NO LIGHT TO BREAK UP THE DARK

THATS WHEN I,I...

I LOOK AT YOU

2010-04-14T02:58:00.000-07:00

my friend say

i'm a fool

to think that you're the one for me

i guess i'm just a sucker for love

maybe some people think i'm a fool

for loving 'him'.

but honestly you don't control my life or even how i feel.

just live your life and i live my life.

okay...

next topic.

eida,jgn sedih.

you know that me,farsha,ain,azezah and sri will always be there for you.

through good and bad we will be beside you.

your tears is not worth this situation.

whatever you can talk to us

and we will help you get through this.

2010-04-13T05:16:00.000-07:00

finally posting something on my blog.

school is more tiring then ever.

wake up early in the morning.

and go back late.

bags are unbareble.

the surrounding are getting boring.

but somehow through all that i love my classmate then any other classmate i ever had.

at first it was boring,

as it seem that everyone are lifeless.

but as time pass by,

they are the best damn thing.

i feel that me and eida are sitting at a war zone area

paper are flying over our head.

i manage to cope with the lesson.

but sometime went to dreamland.

sometimes i coundn't understand a word the teachers say.

sometimes i was not listening cause i'm thinking of 'stuff'

i manage to pass most of the subject.

but it hurts to see subject that i fail.

i've been missing some classes cause of my laziness.

but what hurt me the most...

is when i couldn't get t see 'him'

sometime i wonder how he capture my heart.

i'm trying to find meself in this crazy world.

and wonder where i really belong.

I'VE BUILT A WALL,

NOT TO BLOCK ANYONE OUT.

BUT TO SEE WHO,

LOVES ME ENOUGH,

TO CLIMB OVER IT.

i guess the phrase above is true.

sometime we built a wall.

to keep us from getting hurt.

but i guess the one who love us enough,

would manage to capture our heart and help us understand,

love.

2010-02-19T18:20:00.000-08:00

2010-02-18T23:29:00.000-08:00

today was okay.

i guess.

last week on friday me,eida,farsha and zaza watch valentine's day.

the movie was great.

then on sunday watch percy jackson and the lightning theif with my family.

the movie was awesome too.

and my handphone spoil.

and i use another handphone.

hopefully my father stick to his word and buy for me the handphone that i really want.

hershey make me fall for him all for again.

i'm always blushing whenever someone says his name.

it's hard to explaine how he make me feel.

people may call me stupid that i'm still waiting for him.

but they won't know how much i feel for you.

til here

...

2010-02-10T01:01:00.000-08:00

today was great even when i did not see him that much.
the only incident is after recess when me and iqah was walking at the hall.
and and "iziz" like always.
but it was great.
then during chem was fun.
me and fadris had a friendly fight.
he called me a "minah" and i called him a "mat"
nothing like serious.
on friday going to watch VALENTINE'S DAY !!!!
with some of the BYT!
can't wait also going to celebrate zaza birthday.
can't wait!!!

2010-02-08T22:20:00.000-08:00

oh my god!
okay...
i will talk about yesterday first.
today post is all about him since nothing else happen.
so after the first period mother tongue was over.
all of us waited outside our classroom since the chinese people still using the classroom
then eqah asked me to accompany her to the toilet.
so i went with her.
blah,blah,blah.
then walked back to the classroom.
farsha called my name.
so i turn around.
then suddenly i saw him and "gang"
then suddenly i say something.
but luckily only farsha heard it.
then i and farsha started laughing.
some of them was staring like "fafa"
ohmygod.
today was like crap.
came to sch and assemble
looked around and he was not there.
i don't know.
i suddenly felt sad that he is not around.
skip,skip,skip
the concert was like ...
ended sch as per normal.
not at 12.30
then walked to the busstop.
suddenly is saw "iziz" and i thought i saw kit kat.
then walked pass each other.
the suddenly i hear "his name"
then i asked ain.
then she say that it is him.
i was like what.
i thought that the other guy was kit kat but it was him.
oh my god.
then i looked again and i saw him.
i stare at them for god know how many time.
and like "iziz" and him stare for a few time.
til here.

2010-02-04T01:37:00.001-08:00

today is the happiest day of my life.
i swear!
i just can't get it off my head.
all together about 5-6 incident happen that make me happy.
first incident happen at the busstop.
he and 'fafa' walked together.
second is walking up to the mother tongue classroom at level 3.
he and his 'gang'
second is after mother tongue.
walking to classroom at level 3.
he and his 'bestfriends'
i whisper to myself.
'ohmygod'
haha.
third incident is recess time.
wasn't much of an incident but counted for me.
fourth was like speachless
half of the class including me was being punished.
won't elaborate more about it.
but i was looking down at the floor.
then heard someone 'sweat2'
still looking at the floor.
suddenly ain looked at me.
then she smile.
i was like what.
soo i look up and saw him and 2 of his 'closest friend'.
but i only saw 'iziz'
the last incident was fun.
me and iqah was sitting at the busstop suddenly bus number ?? came.
i saw her smilling and looking inside i thought she saw 'kit kat' or something.
so i scan the whole bus to my surpise i saw him.
i was soo happy.
actually iqah didn't saw him at first until i told her.
ain say i was blushing the whole time whenever the 'incident' happen.
i was really happy.

asking god if he could play it again

2010-02-02T20:58:00.000-08:00

finish the e-learning thingy.
fail 2 test.
phy and chem.
whatever.
still alot of test to come.
heard this from an aunty while walking with eida and eqah.
the aunty was standing behind us.
and say this in malay.
parent are putting in money,
and sending the child to school.
while at school the children are dating.
and forget about their education.
like oh my god!
they are like judging teen without even seeing the truth.
there are like soo many people i know that are dating but still have time for education.
til here.

xoxo bitches

2010-02-01T02:38:00.000-08:00

i don't know what to write but i'm going to try updating this dead blog.
nothing interesting.

xoxo,
bitches

2010-01-04T00:05:00.000-08:00

finally blogging.
haha
first day of school was obviously boring.
waiting for eida was damn long.
blah,blah,blah.
we were late.
while walking saw hershey.
look away.
i kept on seeing him for the whole day.
wth
whatever...
let see what tomorrow brings.

2009-12-27T20:15:00.000-08:00

Too windy so face lyke tat..

Heylo peeps!Farsha again!I'm not sure when Ila can update..Well,hopefully she get too watch Twilight:new moon..A few daes,hours,seconds,minutes school gonna starts..Yeah!HKSS are back in the new school!

To Insertname

Pengecut tu tidak,tapi org suker kater "SPAMMERS NO LYFE"NO Offence!

ILA!UPDATE PLS!

RINDU siot ngan kau!

2009-12-20T01:50:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps!Farsha here updating for Ila..

Well mayb Ila been Bz or lazy? to update her blog..Ila!!update larh seyh!?Jumper kau went skool re-opens aites..!

To Iza:
Ni perkara kecik so aku rase kiter end it arh ehq..aku tkkn besarkn bende spamming ni bkn atas sebab aku takut tapi atas sebab aku malas nk layan bende camni..Memang btl kau tk kacau idop aku..tapi kenape kau nk kacau kwn baek aku?Kau ckp aku menyemak n menyebok?Saper menyemak kau ker aku?Ni blog kwn aku sia,kau dtg tk pslpsl ckp dier mepek n bodoh.Kalau org luar ckp mcm tu kat kwn baek kau,kau suker per?aku raser tk kan,btl tk btl?Slh ker kalau aku tlg kwn sendiri..?Rambut aku irritating utk kau n BAKUL?haha.Biler maser rmbt aku ader pat kau?At least bakul aku lagy lawa dari bakul nyonya pki seyh..

2009-12-04T04:39:00.000-08:00

finally updating the blog.
life is boring.
stuck at home.
i wanna see NEW MOON!
what to say...
to the whoever spam my blog the last time,
this is for you....
you're a fcuking idiot.
i don't know who the hell you are.
not to forget,
a motherfcuking coward.
you too coward to write your fcuking name.
you're soo fcuking scared that people going to find out.
and i 'm a snob.
thats bullshit.
you can asked people that know me.
i ain't a snob.
your insecurity is fcuking low.
you can't come to my face and tell me what you think.
but you do the coward way by writing at my blog and not to forget not writing your name.
don't you have other stupid thing to do.
stupid people do stupid stuff
just like you.
you are ...
STUPID
finish with that.
missing everyone.
see you guys soon.

2009-11-21T20:56:00.000-08:00

Hey people , khalidah's here posting for Nabila .

Ila punye blog dh mati laa tats why im updating for her .

see how kind i am ? haahaaa ! x}

Ila , aku miss kau gyler maot to the core ! ! org msg , tk reply .

PANDAI btol laa kau . x} haha . dh laa gini cukop ye .

nth else to write . i'm blank , haah .

Ila , ape2 nudge tawuk ! huhu <3

miss kau sesangatttt laa HERSHEY :D !

GOODBYE ♥ GOODBYE♥ GOODBYE♥

2009-11-01T23:40:00.000-08:00

current mood bored!
can't wait for tomorrow.
missing everyone.
next year class 3n1,index no. 17.
subject history and poa.
yeah.
eida and farsha in the same class
i just can't wait.

2009-10-29T04:39:00.000-07:00

(behind the smile,is a dying pain)

i don't want tomorrow to come.
it's too fast.
this pain won't go away.
i don't want it to come.
it just kill me inside with each passing day.
i don't know how i will react tomorrow.
no smile.
i can't say goodbye to you.
it's hard.
this suck.
all the my happiness went away.
i can't take this pain.
how will i be happy,
if you the only one that bring a smile on my face.

PLEASE DON'T GO AWAY,
CAUSE I NEED YOU NOW

this is the saddest moment of my life.

WHEN YOU'RE GONE,
THE PIECES OF MY HEART ARE MISSING YOU

2009-10-26T23:51:00.000-07:00

morning told eida how i was feeling.
blah,blah,blah.
went to the army thingy.
blah,blah,blah.
skip,skip,skip.
then at the end of the trip.
went to the bus and sat down,
i asked eida which class took the bus which is beside us.
then she say 2t1.
i say no,as 2t1 took the other bus.
i thought the bus was 2t2 bus.
then blah,blah,blah.
turn then saw hershey.
wtf.
then eida start to have a "conversation" with her hor?y partner.
talk.talk,talk.
she took their picture.

please don't go away,cause i need you now

2009-10-22T04:56:00.000-07:00

today was okay.
morning was paisey.
some people told me and eida to go to the classroom.
so we went.
we talked2.
then around 7.45
mr fok told us to go to the hall.
WTH
walked to the hall people looking.
sat down,then talked.
i looked behind a lot of time.
then one time i looked behind,
saw kit kat,
stare eye-to-eye with him.
looked infront talked to khalidah.
then looked behind again...
now stare eye-to-eye with iziz.
!WTH!
blah,blah,blah.
then talked about hershey with eida.
eida say that when she turned around.
to looked for (f).
she saw hershey looking at our direction.
(blushing)
haha.
then when our recess time.
my recess time is different from hershey.
but then he came down to the canteen with iziz.
when i saw him around the direction near the stair.
i was like smiling already.
then eida say why?
i just kept smiling then farsha told her.
haha.
i was looking some where else.
then i looked at his direction he looked in front.
yes saw him again.

IF YOU JUST REALISE,WHAT I JUST REALISE

2009-10-21T01:50:00.000-07:00

today was ok.
morning was all laugh and fun by the end of the day it went moody.
wait for eqah cause she say she cut her hair and it looked funny.
laugh for a while.
then looked saw iziz then looked back and tell eqah.
then looked back.
he still looking.
whatever ignore him.
blah,blah,blah
then went all came walked at the staircase then saw a lizard.
everybody shouted .
hahaha
went to the toilet to see what how eqah hair look like.
it is actually ok..
then went out of the toilet saw iziz.
stare eye to eye with him.
blah,blah,blah...
then after assembly walked out of the hall looked inside to see weather hershey came.
looked at his class,and then scan all of them,
then saw iziz,stare eye to eye with him again.
find out that i pass my english.
blah.blah,blah.
then recess saw hershey.
blah,blah,blah.
while eating i looked up and suddenly saw hershey looking then looked down,
asked farsha to move a bit.
science watch matilda.
then gotten the result.
and i pass all subject.
hahah.
happy.
then suddenly we talked,talked.
and then eida say that next friday will be our last day.
then suddenly i thought about hershey.
almost cry.eida saw my eyes was watery.almost cried.
then farsha say why.then i say nothing.
blah,blah,blah.
then junwei some to my and ask thing.
then he look at my eyes then he say why you cry.
then i say no.
then he say look at her eyes.
eida was singing sad song.
and one of them i almost cry.
til here...

CAUSE WHEN I CLOSED MY EYES AND DRIFT AWAY
I THINK OF YOU AND EVERYTHING OKAY
I'M FINALLY NOW BELIVING.

2009-10-20T03:42:00.000-07:00

today was like ok.
morning do the usual.
went to sch without eida.
while walking to sch,eqah told me about how much fun she had on her weekend.
sit at the hall.
talk crap.
when eida come talk more crap,and abit of gossiping.
then suddenly,
kit kat came.
he did look at our place(sometime).
talk to anna and wish her good luck : D
then iziz came.
talked to khalidah.
then suddenly she say,
"dorang tengok"
i was like huh?
then look ouh.them.
haha.
turn back in front.
then the bell rang.
farsha went.stand up looked around.and the place was being occupied.
so decided to just sit at the corner.
did looked at them.and iziz was looking so looked infront.
blah,blah,blah.
so far...
d&t and math pass (happy giler) haha.
mother tongue was dissapointed at the result.
but then when i calculate the marks i passed the paper.
thx to paper 1. :D
science didn't pass the paper by just 2 freaking marks.
hopefully the overall i pass for science.
after school went to jp.
buy some things.
and also saw a lot of hawt.
haha.
til here.

MAYBE ITS TRUE,THAT I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU
WELL MAYBE TWO IS BETTER THAN ONE
THERE SO MUCH TIME,TO FIGURE OUT THE REST OF MY LIFE
AND YOU'RE ALREADY GOT ME COMING UNDONE
AND I'M THINKING TWO,IS BETTER THAN ONE

2009-10-15T20:19:00.000-07:00

yes.exam is finally over!!!
morning was like shit.
went out of house at around 6.
waited for the bus for about 25 minute.
went to school with eida.
sit at our usual.
then saw hershey and gang standing outside.
look at them.
saw hershey do his fringe.
and i was like damn happy.
org gile.haha.
serious.
he makes me happy.
d&t was damn hard.
turn to the first page and like "what the hell!"
didn't do a lot of question.
try very hard in the drawing.
after that play with the rain.
blah,blah,blah.

i'm loving this song,
by
boys like girls feat taylor swift
"two is better than one"

CAUSE EVERYTHING YOU DO AND WORDS YOU SAY
YOU KNOW THAT IT ALL TAKES MY BREATH AWAY
AND NOW I'M LEFT WITH NOTHING

2009-10-14T00:59:00.000-07:00

today maths paper 2 was hard.
i think for that paper i get single digit.
serious,paper 1 was ok.
after school went to 7-11 with edah.
then went back to wait for eqah and ika.
went walking back to school saw a few groups of people.
soo asked edah to walk under the blok.
then walked2 saw hershey and 1 of his classmate.
i was like,blushing.
then he looked,i looked away.
then i looked back,he looked away.
haha.
then eqah and ika came walked back to 7-11,
then accompany eqah wait for her bus.
then we talked crap while gossiping.
then when her bus came .
then me and edah went to another bus stop.
took bus 187,in the bus we gossip and share a few laugh.
then suddenly 1 aunty talked loudly.
me and eida gossip some more.
then when we arrive at jp .
search for the aunty.
then looked lupe2 nye mak cik glamour.
walked around jp.
saw hong kah lites.
blah,blah,blah.
then when heading back saw 'THE SOMBONGS".
i try to warn eida.
laugh some more.
gossip here and there.
talked a lot of crap.
to someone(won't mention any name)
what i do to myself,
is none of your goddamn business.
i did not judge you on what you have done to your life.
so just stay out of my business,
and i won't distrub your business.

YOU BELONG WITH ME

2009-10-07T21:16:00.000-07:00

today was super fun.
miss the first bus soo have to wait for anther one.
arrive at school,
teros belaja history.
damn susah nak ingat nie semua.
then went gotten the paper.
my worry all went away.
cause the paper was like easy.
and the time was super fast.
after school gy 7-11 buy the usual.
abeh main hujan.
best.
then went to the shop outside school.
buy milo.
suddenly going outside to take the milo.
iziz and gang ade.
teros went inside tell eqah.
she was asking kit kat ade?
i don't know.
i only saw iziz.
then walked,
waited outside the bird shop for nothing.
thought that they will walked away
but no.
they just stand there.
terpakse kiterorg jalan.
then walked at the basketball court.
have a lot of puddle of water.
eqah keep on splashing at us.
i turn behind and saw that kit kat was there.
and was looking at us.
then turned in front.
then i told eqah.
forgot to mention this on the last post.
to some of my classmate.(won't mention any name)
i know you are talking about me.
cause i heard it.
you have no idea why i did it.
you can judge me all you want.
but in the end you didn't know the truth.
everyone make mistake.
i'm not prefect neither are you.
i didn't broke his heart on purpose.
i ain't that kind of girl.
he did moved on.
so why you have to talked about it?
til here

I KNOW NEXT TO YOU IS WHERE I BELONG

2009-10-07T05:45:00.000-07:00

okay.let get started.

to everyone especially DADAH.

IS YOUR DREAM MORE IMPORTANT THEN THE ONE YOU LOVE?

wrote something HERSHEY.

HERSHEY, YOU MAKE ME SMILE.
AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY.
YOU ARE LIKE A PREFECT ANGEL FALLEN FROM THE SKY.
NOBODY WILL UNDERSTAND,
WHY I'M STILL WAITING FOR YOU.
IF ONLY THEY COULD SEE YOU IN MY EYES.
THEN WOULD THEY REALISE HOW SPECIAL YOU ARE TO ME.

Also wrote something for eida.

can't remember.

2009-10-06T03:53:00.000-07:00

today was okay.
waited for eqah and edah at their busstop in the morning.
eqah came early.
she actually asked me to listen to a song the day before.
but i forgotten.
she actually have the song in her ipod.
then we listen.
she so irritating.
mixing the song with the word hershey.
skip.skip.skip
d&t was super fun.
best lesson of the day.
teacher teach us about the machine thingy.
then we need to do an activity.
must fix a lego set.
that represent a machine.
then need to write down on a piece of paper.
skip.skip.skip
recess time was ok.
i was searching for hershey(i'm admitting)
but to bad he wasn't there.
during CME lesson was doing maths worksheet.
after doing the worksheet,farsha challenged me on a game og tic-tac-toe.
haha..
and i won...
maths lesson just have to finish another worksheet,
then we can do our own thing.
eida was prank messaging someone.
haha.

wherever you go, whatever you do
i will be right here, waiting for you
whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you

you make it hard to say GOODBYE

2009-09-30T01:31:00.001-07:00

i wanna believe what eida and eqah say.
i wanna believe tat one day we will be together.
every time i keep thinking "is he worth waiting for?"
i asked eida the same question.
and she say yes,if like we are together.
and i tell her that how can i be with someone else,
if my heart belong to him.
i don't know.
we just have to wait.
you really make it hard to say goodbye.

2009-09-28T00:34:00.000-07:00

today was ok,i think.
first lesson was english.i just stare blankly at the whiteboard.
and talk to eida a few time.
then it was mother tongue.
had to copy a letter.hand paining.
recess was ok with a twist.
it was like almost the end of recess.
then hershey nye "gang" was walking i looked at eida.
then she say 'dah'.
so i looked behind and suddenly saw hershey.
he was walking and then truned the other way.
i was like 'WTH'
after tat science.
blah2...
then maths...
blah2...
then history...
mood malas giler...
after school waited for ika and eqah...
then me,eida and eqah decided to go to 711.
first waited for some guy.ok.
ika went with tat guy.
then we saw hershey and gang coming out of the school.
we decided to wait.eqah say if they come up using the first staircase we go down using the second staircase.but they didn't soo we have to like walked in front of this mat rep nye gang.
at tat time me and eqah was already holding hands.(we ain't lesbian,k.)
eqah wanted to walked through them but me and eida don't want to.
i did hold her hand tightly and say no.
then i turn to looked at hershey.and he also looked with a curious face.
soo we decided to walked behind the blok.
walk2 talk2.
then went back eqah was like afraid she would see kit kat.
when went back saw eida nye boyfriend nye twin.
he was like smiling.
whatever...
til here.

2009-09-24T02:51:00.000-07:00

today was great...seriously...
morning was like normal.
today went out of the house late.
doing hair...
then took bus 98.
stop at lakeside mrt then took 187.
since i was late i wait for eida and eqah at the traffic light.
i didn't tie up my hair since it was still wet.
eqah stare.weird ke?
haha
english...boring
p.e...went to lala land...
recess didn't eat,just drink milo.
then change into uniform..
zulaika and eqah was playing water.
kan kiterorg mcm bdk kecik kan.
science did a test. damn sure going to fail the test.
then mother tongue.
did work book.
then after lesson,teacher asked me and eida to bring the books to her pigeon hole
kan kiterorg bdk baik.
of course kiterorg angkat.
me and eida decided to used another staircase.
but got a lot of senior so went back to used the other staircase.
by the time kit kat and eida nye boyfriend nye twin pun dah jln balik to the class.
i couldn't help but to look at eida nye boyfriend nye twin,then he stop at the door.
kit kat dah masuk dlm.
then he called out hershey,and then he look at my direction.
then suddenly hershey appear at the door.i was like dragging eida already...
then i told her the whole incident.
music was one of the funniest lesson...
and the rest is history...
til here...

2009-09-10T00:38:00.000-07:00

sorry for not updating blog tat often.
lazy to write.
my mind is super blur..
can't wait until america next top model season 13 coming out.
been watching tv all day long.
miss all of my friends.
khalidah,our wish(the thing tat we did on 26 wednesday,you did on the right side,i did on the left side..)
the thing freaking close sak.
eida!!!!!
i have to do it again.
kene rase pain dier lagi.
like WTF!!!
dah lah sakit gile.
kene buat lagi sekali.
til here...
hopefully boleh update besok,k.

hate that i love you soo

2009-08-20T03:22:00.000-07:00

OMG!!!
today is one of my most luckiest day of my life.
like serious.
EQAH never come(B.Y.T know,i know and the public won't)
i going to skip the boring part and go straight to the point.
my mother tongue class is like any where if like the former class is not use.
first we went to 2A class.a few minute later the 2A people came back.
so we decided to leave the class and like walked beside the NT class.
but both the classes is being use soo we use the mother tongue class room.
then a few minute later my classmate,irfan came to the class and asked for him uniform.
then he said that there will be a grooming check.
and i was like...WHAT!!!
i looked at juliana and asked her if she bring her uniform and she said that she did'nt bring.
then when the class is over i walked at farsha mother tongue classroom.juliana ask me why i not going to walk to the music room?
i said that i'm waiting for farsha and eida.
then i walked and i peep at their classroom and i saw that like eida and farsha is not there.
but my gut feeling tell me to wait them to see if the class is over.
a few minute later,farsha came out and said that eida was caught.
and i was like,WHAT THE HELL...
then i asked who else was caught.
then see told me.
soo we walked down...
then we walked then i hear someone shout.
i looked to the right.
then i saw "the black witch"
and a few of my classmate...
then i saw jonathan and he show me the sign to run
and farsha asked me to run to the music room while she took the class journal.
and she said that irfan was putting me to run with his p.e t-shirt...
i ran and saw arvin,endang ,thatchayani and sangetha...
sangetha was still wearing her p.e t-shirt...
blah,blah,blah,blah...
then he show me where all the people who was caught...
a lot sey.
then farsha came down.sangethe went and change to her uniform.
i hide behind a piller.then farsha said that the black witch is coming down and surely she will see me...
soo she asked me to go near the door and she will block me and arvin stand in front of me.
the the music teacher open the door and i went in.
i went in and like was safe.hahaha.
then a few minute later the people who was caught went to the room.
eida,juliana and anis went first they said that i was lucky to escape.
haikal,johnthan and claudia then come inside(too bad for them,they have to run 2 round arounf thr field)kesian kan.
hahaha.
people were saying how lucky i am to escape from the black witch.
serious i also felt like i was lucky on that day.
til here.
and don't forget to change to our uniform during recess time.
hahaha

hate that i love you soo

2009-08-13T20:05:00.000-07:00

elo people...
today like stupid sak at art club.
like WTF!!!
after doing the clay thingy.
tat stupid teacher ask me and denise to clean up the mess.
not going to elabrate more about it.
today after school was like OMG!!!
after scool me,eida and farsha want to eat before we go our seperate way.
haha.we sat at our own class table.(kata bdk baik kan,haha)...
then saw hershey and gang.
they went to buy rice.then hershey and I???? sat at the 2n3 table.(bile mase dorang jadi pandai,hahaha...don't take it to heart)
like malu sak.
then i turn the other side.and like stare at the field.
then a few minute later...
i still stare at the field,he suddenly i saw him walking.
i like omg...but did'nt show it at my face.
then he walk like at my row.
tat more i become nervous,hahaha.

p.s. i did'nt realise like they is soo many gay boys at our school.(just kiding lah.eida know,i know.)
we always laugh we some of the s_c_e_ boys act like they are gays.seriously sooo damn funny.haha

til here...

hate that i love you soo

2009-07-31T01:48:00.000-07:00

when stay back doing maths project.me and sri were drawing things at the whiteboard....

i realise something...he made me fall in love back.i finally realise it.if all that is happening i found out that i love you....sri trust me when i say that he still like you.i know it.whenever he acts around you.BOY, EVERYDAY I HOPE TO MAKE YOU PART OF MY LIFE!!!!

seriously.like this whole week i been seeing your face...

like that time in the morning walking towards the school gate,when i was standing outside the mother tongue room and you walk past me and even just now when me eida and sri was standing outside my mother tongue.

i saw one of you classmate walking outside and then i saw you looking at my direction.

and even just now during recess time,every time i saw you stare.

i just can't help but smile on the inside,and when i talk with sri about you i just can't help but smile.

i just can't help but to fallin love with you...

til here....

hate that i love you soo

2009-07-21T03:04:00.000-07:00

today was funny in the morning.

in the morning,eida and me seat behind the staircase.

farsha went to level 4.amirul did'nt know where she go.

so he told us about a stupid ridiculous made up story.

but it did make me and eida laugh.

he told us that farsha is his child,and his wife is anqi.

yesterday he saw her at geylang with an apek
he say she is dating him or something.

then he told his wife(anqi) about what he saw.

anqi told him not to beat up farsha.

but he did'nt listen.

and ran around like mad people.

remember it was a made-up story.

hahaha.

it made me and eida laugh like mad.

d&t boring.

then after recess we need to go to the hall for some emotion talk.was quite boring.

not going to elaborate much.

then it was art lesson.

i did'nt understand a freaking thing.

then maths,i don't know why i was feeling lazy for that period.

mr. fok did blast at us.

because he think that our behaviour was unacceptable.

he was right.most of us was feeling lazy.

tomorrow need to act for english project...

wish me luck...

til here...

hate that i love you soo

2009-07-20T02:45:00.000-07:00

seriously i don't like fights.can like you guys tell us what really happen.

cause i really don't judge a book by its cover...

like stop the war,please...

today was fun and boring.

i really can't help but remember during recess time.

when i look in his eyes.

like i want stare at him but i can't.

like someone please help me.

omg.the image keep on floating in my head.

what to do....

til here...

hate that i love you soo

2009-07-16T23:20:00.000-07:00

seriously,i'm tired of all this fights.
tats why going to sch sux!!!
if you wanna fight then go on.but don't put in innocent people into the mess lah.
fcuking irritating lah.
seriously can't take it lah.
hate things like this happen.
ACTION SPECK LOUDER THEN WORD!!!!
to that someone....
you say only but you did'nt do it.
if you wanna slap me or anyone come up to me and slap me.
if you speck and never do it what's the point.
til here....

hate that i love you soo

2009-07-15T02:56:00.000-07:00

today was mixed with good and bad.
hating amirul like to the core.
like fcuk you.
you judge me.
let me tell you something,you fcuking asshole.
judge your fcuking self first,k.
like try to imitate me cause no one else can do better then me.
fcuk you,fcuk your attitude,fcuk your face.
get the hell out of my face.
not going to elaborate more about that fucking asshole.
i don't even know what is the good point about my day.
whatever lah.let the past be the past.
hahaha.
but no way i'm going to forget or forgive him.
like you can go to hell.
cause i will never forgive him.!!!
word that come out of his mother-fcuking mouth is all bullshit.
til here...

hate that i love you soo

2009-07-13T02:48:00.000-07:00

today was funny.
jun wei keep on saying things in american accents.
science lesson was funny...
i asked him to talk in american accent.
and he went up to the teacher and say this,"why don't you speak english" in like american/slang language.he said that about 2/3 times then he say this,"don't mess with hong kong people".still in his stupid accents.damn hilarious sak.can't stand it.
then farsha ask jun wei to shout baha(anyone who know anything,don't take it to heart,k.)
he asked me and eida."what is baha?"
then eida suddenly say baha means city.by the time i alredy started laughing.
then he go to siti my classmate and start saying baha to her.
by that time me and eida was laughing like mad.
hahaha til here...

2009-07-09T04:47:00.000-07:00

today was fun but tiring.
tiring because of the stupid 2.4 run lah.
like the first 5 round i was doing good.teacher say that i was impressive.
but the last two round i started to walk.
like the temperature is super hot!!!
but at least i try my hardest right.and i improve from the first try.
B.Y.T make my life super fun.
today every single one of the B.Y.T had a problem except for sri.
eida rindu sombody,farsha can't reveal her problem.her problem is only for the B.Y.T ears.
me,confuse.
whatever lah.we ge through it some how,rite.
til here...

how could you be soo heartless

2009-07-02T01:18:00.000-07:00

i'm still angry to those basterd.

like WTF.

no point making peace with them cause i will just start a war.

i WTH.

syukir say tat i can't run to eida.

fcuking as*hole.

you wanna say tat to me.

prove to me that you can run lah.

cakap kat cikgu tangan sakit bukan kaki.

abeh tk blh lari????

kalau kau lari pun akan fail lah.

dah lah nak step mane nye gangster.

like blh nampak sak fake.

seriously no point making peace with that son of a bi*ch!!!
with amirul a bit different.
i did not make peace with him.
no point.
just ignore him.
but sometime i can feel my anger.
like tat time he make fun of me and i feel as if i want to smash his head into the wall!!!
and listen to this one:
he make fun of people and when people want to slap him things like tat,
he ran away.
what a freaking coward rite????
can talk crap about people and when people want to hurt you back you ran away.
plus now he look like a freaking chicken.
every single day,me and eida always talk crap about both of them.
only thing i want to say to them is:
don't underestimate what i will do if you cross the line.
i will hurt you soo badly,emotionally and maybe physically.
you don't know me tat well.
dumb as*hole!!!
i feel like my emotion is controlling me.
sometimes i'm happy about ****.and the next thing i'm sad about it.
til here.

2009-06-19T03:20:00.000-07:00

super boring.
nothing to do.chatting with KHALIDAH and JULIANA.
just reborn my fringe today.
will be updating photos tomorow.

how you love me now

2009-06-02T20:35:00.000-07:00

i heard a news from eida,about *********.

i don't feel as if *********,is worth my crying.

thx to *********,you make me stronger.

i don't why it,you just not worth crying for.

this is for you...

GOODBYE

by Kristinia DeBarge

Am i suppose to put my life on hold?

because you don't know how to act,

and you don't know where your life is going.

Am i suppose to be torn apart.

broken hearted,in the corner crying.

Pardon me if i don't show it,

i don't care if i never see you again,

i'll be alright.

Take this final piece of advise and get youself together,

but either way,

Baby i'm gone,

i'm so over it ,

been there and back,

changed all my numbers,

and just in case you're wondering,

i got that new,

i'm a single-girl swag,

got me with my girls,

and we're singin' it see,

NA NA NA NA,NA NA NA NA,

HEY HEY HEY,GOOD-BYE.

NA NA NA NA,NA NA NA NA,

HEY HEY HEY GOOD-BYE

cut my hair, 'cause it reminded me of you,

i know you like the long do,

had to switch my attitude up.

thinkin' of changing how i ride,

no more on the passenger side,

too bad you miss out on the way that i drive it.

i don't care if i never see you again,

i'll be alright.

take this final piece of advise,

and get yourself together,

but either way.

Baby i'm gone,

i'm soo over it,

i been there and back,

changed all my numbers,

and just in case you're wondering,

i got that new,

i'm a single girl swag,

got me with my girls,

and we're singin' it see,

NA NA NA NA,NA NA NA NA,

HEY HEY HEY GOOD-BYE.

GOOD-BYE,

NA NA NA NA,NA NA NA NA

HEY HEY HEY GOOD-BYE,

HEY HEY,

HEY HEY HEY GOOD-BYE,

i'm so over it,

been there and back,

changed all my numbers,

and just in case you're wondering,

i got that new,

i'm a single-girl swag,

got me with my girls and were singin' it,

see,

NA NA NA NA,NA NA NA NA,

HEY HEY HEY GOOD-BYE,

NA NA NA NA,NA NA NA NA,

HEY HEY HEY GOOD-BYE,

GOODBYE,

NA NA NA NA,NA NA NA NA ,

HEY HEY HEY GOOD-BYE,

NA NA NA NA,NA NA NA NA,

HEY HEY HEY GOOD-BYE,GOOD-BYE

HERSHEY GOODBYE

how you love me now

2009-06-01T02:22:00.000-07:00

candid.

'b.y.t' forever

[nothing to write]

miss them alot.

just only a few day and already miss them.

what to do.

currently chatting with bestest girlfriend ever.

chatting about yg tk terjadi 'lovelife'

and a few other gossip.

*still hating AMIRUL and SYUKIR!!!

what can i say,

i'm just a girl that don't forgive people easily.

screw me once,shame on you,

screw me twice, shame on me
there is no way in the whole wide world,

will i ever forgive this motherfu*king basterd.

some people may just forgive people like that but i won't.

i'm not the type of person who forgive and forget.

i'm sometime get annoy by people.

like serious.

if someone does annoy me,usually i will speak back will harsh tone.

or even just ignore by not speking at the person at all.(only until i calm myself down)

really AMIRUL and SYUKIR word mean notting to me any more.

they could say sorry to future or past situation.

but they just wasting thier time asking me to forgive them.

if you feel the way those as*hole treat me or done things to me.

i sooo damn sure you won't forgive them for etrenity.

i'm soo pissed off at them rite now.

the anger just won't go away!!!

AMIRUL you are not the boss of me.

look at yourself...

who in the whole damn world do you think you are?

YOU NOT MY PARENTS AND YOU NOT THE BOSS OF ME

so don't pull me anymore and say what you want to say.

my hand feel like wanting to smack you fu*king face.

AND IF YOU DO THAT I SWEAR TO GOD I WILL DO SO.

trust me.

i don't just seat around and act like notting is wrong.

SYUKIR,boy don't act like a gangster lah.

you're don't look like one or even talk like one.

you just a bad POSER...

tat is seeking for attention.

and not even getting any.

cause you just not worth anybody attention lah.

REPLY MY MESSAGE

2009-05-28T01:49:00.000-07:00

dead boring...no nice show to watch.

most show that i like already finish.

still hating AMIRUL and SYUKIR!!!!

never again will i ever forgive them.

such a fu*king as*hole.

have a nice life being an ugly fugly person.

b'cause nobody in this world will ever fall for a guy like you.

even if they do,they will feel regretfull.

and mostly embrass.

those guys don't know how to treat a girl rite.

soo anybody reading this be aware of them,k.

EIDA IF YOU READING THIS,

REPLY BACK MY MESSAGE.

i want to know if you coming with me tau.

still remember the damn weird dream.

can't get that dream out of my head.

but no way gonna fall for *****.

like eida say,

dier mesti langkah mayat ****.

something like dat.

sri,eida,farsha and me are all,,,

SINGLE BUT UNAVAILABLE!!!!

understand and remember it.

sri just admit that you like KIT KAT.

selalu ckp psl dier.

it's not annoying to hear her story.

most of what she say to me are quite funny and cute.

JUST ADMIT IT!!!

i know from the way you always talk about him.

you like him to the max.

kan2???

eida,go and top-up your pp8.

susah sak nak message kau.

remember...

REPLY MY MESSAGE!!!!

to farsha happy birthday in advance.

tomorrow will be updating photo.some photo may be fuuny like hell.

hahaha...

to EIDA again,

REPLY MY MESSAGE

til here

...

2009-05-27T02:39:00.000-07:00

hate AMIRUL and SYUKIR!!!!

gy mampus sudah sak.

as*hole!!!!

why i hate SYUKIR.

-he is an as*hole,gy mampus sudah.

first nak step PUNK sekarang nak step mane punye SKINHEAD...

kau ckp aku lagi mepek bile kau lagi mepek.

go fuck yourself lah.

at least aku true tu aku punye self bukan mcm kau.

dah lah nak step mane punye gangster...

go fu*k yourself lah,dari pade nak buat org marah.

as*hole.

kau bukan mcm gangster jadi jgn nak act gangster lah.

why i hate AMIRUL:

-stupid idoit fool.

kalau nak bohong,tolong bohong betul2 lah,aku tk bodah mcm kau.

dah lah mcm pondan sak.

nak step mane punye handsome!!!!

kat dalam kelas nie,kau dgn SYUKIR tk handsome and tk blh tahan taxi....

kalau aku tk kacau kau,kau jgn nak kacau aku lah.

aku tkde time nak entertain bdk retarded mcm kau lah!!!!

as*hole.

kau nye sorry tkde makne lah basterd.

*tomorrow having a birthday bash.

farsha better bring extra shirt.

hahaha.

*hate those motherfu*king basterd!!!!

2009-05-25T03:11:00.000-07:00

i freaking don't know what to think about.

my heart is just too confuse.

ever since that dream,i kinda have a weird feeling for *****.

only 2 people in my life will ever know about this freaking weird dream...

been asking most people,"do dreams have meaning?"...

and ans that i get are,'maybe','tk tahu'...

i need an ans 'yes' or 'no'.

hate this kind of feeling.

it's like your heart saying,'no,there is only one person in my heart' but my mind is like there is no point in waiting.

even if every dream have a meaning,what in the whole wide world does that dream mean...

cause i really love you

2009-05-07T20:08:00.000-07:00

hey people still have the moody feeling.
i don't know why i could feel like this for ????
seriously ???? if you going to hurt me then do it quickly

this is for that boy.

Boy, my heart was true

And that you can't deny

Don't be a fool

And walk away from all the lies

It's up to you

'Coz heaven knows I've tried

Tell me you're still in love.

my heart was only for you.

but i don't know about that now.

not that i have found a replacement for you.

how could i ever replace you?

nobody will ever replace you...

cause really only heaven know how hard i tried.

???? if you going to hurt,

do it rite now,

cause i'm tired of crying.

i'm really tired of crying for you.

but i realise that i can't let go cause it's really too strong.

cause it just hurts me both way.

not looking at you,kills me inside.

looking at you,just make me feel like things that i can't explain.

feel as if my eyes are getting watery writing this post...

just the explanation for all this is that....

i really love you.

2009-05-06T21:16:00.000-07:00

hey everybody.
i don't know suddenly i feel moody rite now.
i guess that i'm just feeling confuse.
especially confuse about hym .
i want to keep on thinking tat i could love him forever but i feel as if my love for him is fading...

this is what i told eida,if i have the chance to talk to him,i will say this to him,

ila says:
i want him to know that i have love him all this while.and i want nobody else but him.i want a hapily ever after and not a sad ending.
eIDa ; says:
yaya .
eIDa ; says:
aku pn .
eIDa ; says:
tapi nampaknye aku tk blh .

chatting with khalidah this is what i told her...

god,i hate this feeling.

if i make it through,i won't want to be in love again.

really want him!!!

want to see his face!!!

2009-04-29T20:01:00.000-07:00

really miss everyone at sch.
i miss khalidah,farsha,sri,ika and also ????.
stupid flu!!!!
really2 hate it.
like what the f*c*...
can't wait to go to sch on monday!!!
can't see his face for 4 whole day is like 4 whole years.
really hope my fever go away soo i don't have to go for the blood check.
hope that mr. yeo understand that i can't take p.e for 1 whole week.
yeah!!!
stupid nafa test.but i really hope that i pass.
really2 miss ????
i got to stay healty.
when i went to poly clinic yesterday the nurse check my temperature and i was like 39.3
that was the higgest there i think and when i reach home my temperature went up to 39.8
but lucikly it went down.
hopefully my temperature won't get any higger.
i want to go to sch...

2009-04-22T18:17:00.000-07:00

INA-SUDDENLY,

We make our paths,

We're independent.

We dump our boyfriends,

And we do our hair anyway we would like.

We figure out,

that we are attractive.

And we look around,

And now we love to live the single life.

And then we tell ourselves we'll never fall in love again.

But then he comes around and suddenly we understand,

That we have never really been in love before.

And suddenly you know what all the love songs that they write are wrong about,

And suddenly you don't care if its right or wrong as long as he's around,

And suddenly the things that used to sound cliche are perfectly right in your eyes

Oh,

perfectly right with this guy.

I know its weird,

But we are connected.

And in some strange and crazy way I think,

That we have always been

And now he's here,

And he says he loves me.

And it feels so right,

In fact it feels so good that I can't sleep at night.

But I just told myself I will not fall in love again.

But he just came around and yeah he made me understand,

That I have never really been in love before.

And suddenly you know what all the love songs that they write are wrong about,

And suddenly you don't care if its right or wrong as long as he's around,

And suddenly the things that used to sound cliche are perfectly right in my eyes

Oh,

Perfectly right when he's here

And yes,

I know you might get impatient.

But look around he might be walking right in front of you.

And if he touches you and you feel your skin is burning,

Kisses you and you feel your stomach turning,

He's the one,

He's the one.

And suddenly you know what all the love songs that they write are wrong about,

And suddenly you don't care if its right or wrong as long as your baby's around,

And suddenly the things that used to sound cliche are perfectly right in your ears.

Perfectly right when he's there,

Perfectly right with this guy there.

*this song is especially dedicated to me and edah for our love story.

edah want m&m and i want hershey...

2009-04-20T01:54:00.000-07:00

HERSHEY I LOVE YOU TIL END OF TIME...

I wanna tell you that no other guy make me feel this way.

no other guy could make my heart beat fast as you made me feel...

you the only think i look forward each and every day.

your smile brighten up my day.

this is for the my one and only hershey...

Your lips speak soft sweetness

Your touch a cool caress

I am lost in your magic

My heart beats within your chest

I think of you each morning

And dream of you each night

I think of your arms being around me

And cannot express my delight

Never have I fallen

But I am quickly on my way

You hold a heart in your hands

That has never before been given away

this poem is for the one and only HERSHEY...

2009-04-14T03:20:00.000-07:00

helo2,today got soo much to tell...
firstly to arvin.i'm really2 sorry.tau.
hope you forgive me.
gonna skip the boring stuff and just go straight to the point.
pc-ls lesson was soo touching.
we was watching a video about nick and dick hoyt(if i'm not wrong).
it's about a father who have a "cacat"son(don't know how to explain in english)
and his son wanted a compete in the iron man triathelont(sorry don't know how to spell)
and the father like swam,cycle and run with his son.
i almost cried.my eyes was like watery.and i was trying to hold it in.
home econ.nothing really interesting happen.
before my mother tongue lesson begin,???? like walked past me and like stare at me at the corner of his eyes.i was also looking at him.
some of them skip mother tongue lesson.
then we all like stay back.me,khalidah,farsha,zulaika and fazira.
while waiting for sri.we all like talk and do our maths hwk.
i'm really frustrated with my maths teacher.
firstly we seated near the platform,zulaika and sri and firdaus was like painting something.and then i painted khalidah hand with the word "F.A".
then things happen.
then khalidah wanted to wash her hand,soo i follow her.
after some time...
ika ask sri to wash the brush,and she ask me to follow her.
but i saw ???? infront some where near the sink.
and i was like panicking and like pulling myself back.
i didn't knew that arvin was there talking to ????.
i suspect that he told ???? and maybe even show him the messages.
maybe that the explaination why he kept staring.
when he stare zulaika keep saying "eh,???? tengah tengok kau."
and khalidah also said that.
ohh yeah.i wrote on khalidah hand "love you till end of time".
for F.A.
and 1 incident i like khalidah was like looking at someone and was like looking at me and smiling.and they say something and i say,'aku punye???'.
and then i trun and look at him.
and like he was staring at us.
and then they say that "lagi blh admit"
and i was like putting my head down.
ohh,yeah one incident is ika suddenly call ????,
and ask him to come here.i was like panic and say "kau jgn jadi m*s*b*t"
and but he don't want to come.ika said that he shook his head and say "tk nak".
edah said is dier ckp mcm bdk kecil.when she saw ika immitating ????.
and ika said thats why ade org suke dier.
then edah say sape.
then her eyes was like looking at me.
then she "tu perumpuan tu"
and i was like blushing.

k,thats all for today...

love is...

2009-04-09T03:48:00.000-07:00

Love is the greatest feeling,

Love is like a play,

Love is what I feel for you,

Each and every day,

Love is like a smile,

Love is like a song,

Love is a great emotion,

That keeps us going strong,

I love you with my heart,

My body and my soul,

I love the way I keep loving,

Like a love I can't control,

So remember when your eyes meet mine,

I love you with all my heart,

And I have poured my entire soul into you,

Right from the very start.

2009-04-08T02:40:00.000-07:00

HERSHEY I LOVE YOU!!!!

this song is dedicated to you!!!

"SUPER HUMAN"

CHRIS BROWN

(FEAT Keri Hilson)

[Chris:]Weak I have been crying and crying for weeks.

How'd I survive when I can barely speak

Barely eat

On my knees

[Keri:]But that's the moment you came to me

I don't know what your love has done to me

It got me invincible I see

Through the me

I used to be

[Chorus:]

[Chris:]You changed my whole life

[Keri:]Don't know what your doing to me with your love

[Chris:]I'm feeling all Super human

You did that to me

Super human heart beats in me

[Both:]Nothing can stop me here with you, superhuman

Super human

[Chris:]Super human

[Keri:]Super human

[Chris:]Strong

Since I've been flying and righting the wrongs

Feels almost like i had it all along

I can see the brrow

[Keri:]But every problem is gone because

I flew everywhere with love inside of me

It's unbelievable to see

How love could set me free

[Chorus:]

[Both:]You changed my whole life

Don't know what your doing to me with your love

I'm feeling all Super human

You did that to me

Super human heart beats in me

Nothing can stop me here with you, superhuman

Super human

[Chris:]Super human

[Chris:]Its not a bird

Not a plane

[Both:]Its my heart and its gonna go away

[Both:]My only weakness is you

Only reason is you

Every minute with you I feel like I can do

Anything

[Chorus:]

[Both:]Going going I'm going away

In love

You changed my whole life

Don't know what your doing to me with your love

I'm feeling all Super human

You did that to me

Super human heart beats in me

Nothing can stop me here with you, superhuman

Super human

[Chris:]Super human

2009-04-03T21:35:00.000-07:00

this is some of the image i taken yesterday.while we were waiting for the sec 2 thing.

omg,i have soo much to talk about.

after sch me,khalidah,zulaika and sri went to zulaika house to give her brother something but me,khalidah and sri wait for her at the bus stop.while waiting we took picture and sri wanted to look at the "picture".of me and HERSHEY...she keep on smiling and said that she was happy when looking at the picture.then zulaika came and we waited for the bus.at the bus we were quite noisy.we took picture and laugh the whole way.while walking towards the sch we saw chipsmore and his friends.zulaika and sri was like shouting his name while waving at him...

then we went to sch,we sat at the platform and was like talking.then the soccer boys went to the comp lab for briefing or something like that.arvin while walking behind us was like shouting my name,then i trun back and look at him.he was covering his mouth and was like whispering "where HERSHEY",i was like malu already...he did not went with them because he was not in the team.kesian sey...he was sitting with one boy from sec 1.i actually did not notice that he was sitting down there.then sri was saying about baby name.then they say that if me and HERSHEY baby name would be...but they were not sure about what name would be cute.then we wanted to go out.soo we ask the indian people to take care of our bag.then i notice that HERSHEY was sitting at the SAC.and i was like malu already.then we went to the shop and wanted to buy thing,but i did not bring my money soo me and sri went back to sch.i ask sri not to walk near the SAC but she did not listen...and i was like pulling her.then HERSHEY saw ask and was like staring at me with his eyes.and i was like pulling sri.malu again.then we ate maggi cup at the basketball court outside sch.we were watching a few people playing soccer.while talking to each other.then sri took pic of zulaika..then we went back to sch,we took our bag and was like walking to the platform.then zulaika and sri was like going to sabo me.but lucikly HERSHEY ignore them.i said to sri that he is soo cute like a little emo boy.then we play heart attack.we were extremly loud.and was like shouting and laughing.khalidah hand was like hit by zulaika then she need to do pole dancing as a punishment,lucikly the soccer boys was not there. then we play AEIOU,suddenly while we were playing zulaika say "eh soccer boy,soccer boy" we all was like panicking ecpecially sri...hahaha.but it trun out to be the sec 3 express student.hahaha.then the soccer boy came down and they all was like walking outside we acted that we was like walking to the shop and follow them.we did not know where they were going.soo went to the playground and play the swig.we had soo much fun there.since there was four of us and there was only two swig we had to do the lesbian swig.created by zulaika that was soo funny and fun.then we took pic.oh i remember after the talk we went to the basketball court and saw HERSHEY and his friends was playing soccer.we walk around the court and then suddenly sri fall into the longkang.hahaha.zulaika was like laughing aloud.sri must been thinking about KIT KAT.

til here lazy to write more.but yesterday was like the most fun day of my life.

hopefully we can do it again..

bye for now.

i really2 want you!!!!

2009-04-02T00:48:00.000-07:00

firstly i want to say to khalidah.thank you sooo much now i can look at someone face when i am feeling down...
omg,how did amirul know about ????...
he is a freking a*s*o*e!!!
i think he told farizuan about ????.
then farizuan said that he is going to tell my brother about ????...
like i give a shit!!!
you can tell him if you want.cause he know already knew...

to ????...
i just want you to know that...
i really2 want you.
no other guy can make me feel the way you make me feel.
i'm going crazy from the moment i met you!!!
this is what i want you to know for now.
cause i don't want nobody but you!!!
and i really mean it!!!.
and sri said she shout when she saw those photo,
cause she thought that we are prefect for each other.
boy i really2 WANT YOU!!!

2009-03-30T00:41:00.000-07:00

omg...today just turn into a great day.
seeing him at the end of the day,make me more happy.
firstly he is like standing near the shop and i was like at the middle of the path way...
he keep on looking at my direction(also one of his friend)...
my heart melt when i saw him playing with his friend and then turn to my direction smilling...
omg.i keep on smilling at my friends.and was like slapping them.because he was smilling at my direction...
then near the school gate...
me and my friends was walking near the gate.
and he was like rite behind us and then one of my friend like ask him,where he stay...
and i finally hear his voice for the first time in my life...
after that i keep on smilling.
i'm just not over him.and i can't get over him.
it's like impossible to get over him.

p.s,
he said that he stay near pioneer...

broken heart

2009-03-13T06:39:00.000-07:00

hey there people...
today was hapi til just now...
i hate knowing the truth.especially when it hurt my feeling.
the only one who know about this problem is KHALIDAH...
maybe next time you will know about this problem but not today.
I JUST HATE THIS PART RITE HERE!!!
i push everyone away for you...
thinking about you for every single second.
thinking that one day you would accept me.

i guess i just have to move on.

even though that it will hurt me,

i will try to put it in the past but i will never forget about it...

2009-03-12T01:35:00.000-07:00

i'm abit lazy too write.

soo i upload some pic today...

i took this pic during home econ class...

this is the class joker...

2009-03-09T01:23:00.000-07:00

today i'm going to write a short and simple post...
i saw ???? today.he still stare at me....
the good thing now is ......
atleast now he notice me right....
the bad part is .....
i'm not ready for rejection....
whoever told him that i like him you better watch out...
what kind of person are you revealing people secret...
first he saw me,is when he is near the platform..and he was talking to his friend,and they finish talking...he looked up and saw me...
i was pretending that everything is normal.then when we are far away...
can't help but to smile...
another time is when i was having music.
he saw me and then look at me...omg!!!
then he and his friend like stare...

B.T.W : some of the girls at the class was fighting because of some stupid reason....

like i give a sh*t!!!

2009-03-04T22:17:00.000-08:00

i just came home from clementi stadium.
today was just like horrible.
i came wearing a beta t-shirt.
today was hot and boring.
to tell the truth i did not thought that to day was going to be this hot.
but when i reach clementi stadium.
farsha and khalidah told me about what bit*h had told her ex and he told khalidah.
WTF,she think that all preety.
OMG,all the boys that she have crush on rejected her...
to skip all the boring part.at the middle of the sport day.i was having stomach cramp.
but when the sport day almost ended,about when we almost finishing our school song.
i felt that i wanted to vomit.
soo my friend saw me and they quictly bring me to the toilet..
too all the people who ask me if i'm feeling alright,my friends,my junior,and some of the upper sec,i'm alright.kk,
then we was dismiss.i saw ???? outside the stadium from where i was standing i could see that he was looking at me.
then when we started to walk.khalidah was checking at ???? if he was staring at me.
and he was staring at me.

that all for today...

with love,
ila...

2009-03-04T00:47:00.000-08:00

tuesday for fun but tiring for me.

i'm not going to talk about school because it is normal and boring...

after sch we(sec 2) have to stay back for the "too tuff too puff"...

but before the thing start,me and my friend like walk here and there.

we mostly stay outside the hall,outside the hall ???? stare at me a few time.

???? stare was a weird.i thought that ???? stare at everyone.and like his stare was like normal until...

he and one of his friend was like running and then his friend was like pulling him too go behind a board.i thought that they are playing hide and seek or catching.but then he and his friend was staring directly at me....

i was freeking out.

i and his friend made eye contect for a few second before i turn away.

when i turn away,i pretend that i was talking to my friends.then they went to buy drink...

did ???? know that i like him??? or did someone told him that i like him...

(although he did stare and glance at me.)

wednesday was like every freakin wednesday...

bye2,
with love,

ila...

2009-03-02T00:07:00.000-08:00

Today was a funny day.
first period is IT lesson,and it is boring.so i talked to khalidah...
super boring...
music was abit fun cause the teacher have a little problem with the comp.
sol keep taking crap(in a funny kind of way)...
then it was recess time,it was funny cause i saw my ex.
i just reject him yesterday...
when he walked pass i can't help but to laugh...
then i wanted to buy milo and i saw ????.
after he brought his drink he walk beside me and at the corner of my eyes i could see that he is staring at me.can't help but to think about it...
then when we get to class,khalidah told me that when we started to walk,he stare at me again...
i was feeling OMG!!!(b.t.w,when he was standing near a shop,i felt that ???? was staring at me)
then it was geo,someone shot bottle cap kat farsha.
i actually did not notice it until,mrs. indra told us about it...
then it was math.the guy teacher came into our class,luckly today he never shout at us.
then it was english.english was boring as usual...
then it was pw.it was normal.
our group got release first,???? was sitting near the GO.
with his group of friends.
i did not want to stare at him cause then he know that i have a feeling for him...

bye2
with love,
ila.

omg!!!

2009-01-29T03:06:00.000-08:00

today was a normal day at school.
english was plain boring as usual....
mother tounge we did our own work,
eida was just crazy today.
she keep on doing the wrong thing...
math was quite ok...
science i was a good girl,doing my work at my table.
without asking for answer...
geo was easy for me as i knew the answer...
then eida said that she forgotten to bring her shoe bag for her netball.so we decided to go to her house.
we were waiting for nabillah so that she can acompany farsha...
while waiting for her we saw ????
he was walking alone.(soo unlike him)
then nabillah came soo me and eida went to the bus stop together...
then when we were walking near the bus stop ????
was behind us...
eida was brushing her hair,and was looking at the window.
and i was laughing.
then 188 came soo we decided to aboard the bus...
yeah i took the same bus as ????.
omg...

don't judge a book by its cover...

2009-01-23T05:55:00.000-08:00

hi2 people...
today is a normal day...
english is freaking boring as usual.
math was like boring 2...
then it was recess.i saw ????...he was sitting near the field...
OMG!!!me and khalidah decided to tell hanafi something...
it was freaking hilarious....
science was also fun,we are like singing a song to help us memorise the rainbow colour or something like that...
then after sch,we have to give mrs. Indra our goe homework...
then when we were like going to the staircase we saw hanafi and his friend walking down.
me and khalidah like started to laugh,then i realise like ????? was there.
hahaha.that was like one of the fun moment for the day...
then one person message me...
WTF!!!he said that he will help me talk to ????.
OMG!!!that is a start of another freking problem....
i don't want to be rejected now....

i want u!!!!

2009-01-22T02:22:00.000-08:00

hi there people...
today at sch was normal...
i keep on seeing ????.he was cute (like always)...
OMG!!!during break time was like crazy...
one boy from 1t2 was creating problem with zulaika...
wtf...are you freaking crazy,picking a fight with her???
the boy was like making fun of her hair...
well i always think when someone is making fun of you he is like jealous...
hahahaha.....
zulaika i think he is jealous of your beautiful hair....
i can't freaking forget this...
zulaika kick a freaking boy chair!!!!
hahaha(go ZULAIKA!!!!)
and he said "painful sial"....
the freaking boy who make fun of her hair then run away from her...
what a coward,be a freaking man...
during cca,was super boring...
soo i listen to music and i kept thinking of????
i want you pls!!!!

my complicated life

2009-01-16T15:24:00.000-08:00

hi-hi people...
last night was a hard day for me cause of ____,
he said that he is single but UNAVAILABLE,haiyooo.
that part i did not understand why he is not UNAVAILABLE!!!!
did he get his heart break and he does not want to fall in love again.
OMG how am i supposed to forget him if every day i saw him...
my friend told me that "it can't be that he never fall in love,right".
every one in my age must have fall in love rite.
i have to go i got this art club thingy.
bye bye

with love,
ila